Pain - don't let it get you down!

Pain, pain, pain, pain, pain,pain, pain. That is all I feel on a daily basis. It wouldn't be so bad if the super strong painkillers I am given actually worked. Still you have to stay strong and have a smile on your face and not let it all beat you. Easier said then done hey, however it is possible. Sure I have days when I want to scream because the pain is so bad and feel very frustrated with it all. Although I have managed to adopt a more positive lifestyle. With chronic pain you learn to adapt to what life throws at you. I always try and take the good from the bad and remain positive. 

I am always trying to improve myself as a human being and have a need for distractions. Easier said then done at times. So I read a lot, I am currently about to read about mindfulness, which is supposed to help the mind and body. Trying to go to several courses (anything has to be free, due to extreme lack of money), like the happiness course. A business course and in the late autumn I have a self help pain management course (this is supposed to help have a better quality of life). Continuing with my art work and creating some lovely pieces. These are just a few things that I like to do. Although most of the time I do tend to sleep, well over 12 hours a day, most times much more then that, or watching cheesey tv such as, Real Housewives, Millionaire Matchmaker and This Morning as many other programes I can just stare at when my mind and body refuse to work.

I know that this blog probably seems a bit higgeldy piggeldy, however for me it is a much needed outlet for things that are happening in my life. I will always try and remain positive as I have mentioned above, however due to the nature of this condition and it affecting my thinking at times, sometimes I can be quite passionate and irritated (like most people) about things. I won't name names or anything, like I said this is just an outlet.

Having said all that, I want to post another example of the art work that I create from time to time;

Smile!!

Well this week has been a bit of a wash out and that's not just the weather. I was meant to go to a happiness session on Tuesday, yet I felt so rubbish I had to cancel. Ever since then I have been struggling a bit. My body just doesn't want to respond properly, although that is fibromyalgia for you. On Monday my Dad got rushed to hospital (again) and I think the stress of that probably got to me. So this week I have been mostly watching rubbish day time tv, reading (I am a total book worm) as well as sleeping and do what I can around the flat. What a life hey! 

Daydreaming is always part of my daily life, as to what I could do with it. I certainly don't want this blog to be all doom and gloom, however there are some days when you just want to share how rubbish you are feeling.

Time to paste a smile on my face as I am going to be helping a friend at a wedding fair on Sunday. I really enjoy doing this, every now and again, as I feel like I am useful and have a purpose for a change. Plus I get to see some amazing flowers, cakes, dresses etc. What girl wouldn't love that. 
When it comes to the smile though, I am currently going through a phase of wearing braces, or Invisalign. This is potentially my last week and then I can take these lumps of plastic off and have a lovely straight smile. After almost 18months of having to wear them about 22 hours a day, it is going to be weird yet wonderful to not have to wear them. My experience of having them in has been quite a smooth sailing experience. Yeah there has been a bit of pain, but you have to expect it and weirdly you get used to it. Going from seriously crooked bottom teeth to straight, I cannot wait to get them off and know that I don't have to be embarrassed and can smile all I want. I now know that when I smile on my wedding day that I won't be dreading seeing the pictures after (vain I know, but hey I'm female ;-p )!!